Thought notes

Too much giving shit to something just make you falling apart.


Sometimes, i just wanna move foward and don't fucking care who i gonna disappoint. Just to feel relieve. Because i am tired of trying to make people around me happy that actually i am always dissapoint somebody. So fuck it, i am gonna be an asshole.


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And, have you ever feel when you expecting some big thing on somebody then they're just say "i can't do this" and leave. But, you think that's is not something to angry with, like 'Okay, this is as it should or rightly.' Not a big deal. But, yeah.. You still hurt.


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Once upon a time, i picked a wrong call from a guy, he's so angry and said everything he wanted before i said he called the wrong number, then he apologize and hung up the phone. Does it make me freak if i say i was enjoyed his anger voice?


His voice felt so warm and now i miss it.

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I'm 20 years old now, and i am so worry. No, i am not worry about being older, it's just i haven't done anything yet in my entire life i have been through. I want to start something but my soul is full of doubt. Actually i am just afraid. I am a loser.

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I usually feel bothered by so many little thing, like the way a friend of mine chew their food, or someone said " i am a stubborn" with proud, the hell they're thinking?. It bug me when someone write comment on facebook like they're know everything. And when a stranger start smiling at me on swimming pool, that's make me see them as a Hentai!

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In this country, every disease will cured by Ampicilin, Paracetamol, and Dexamethasone.


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Sometimes i think i need a teraphist. Yeah, fuck.