My Life

I am a movie and tv shows addict. If someone ask me what I wanna do if ever  get into heaven, the answer would be watch all good series in the world. Or live in one. Lol

I am a movie and tv shows addict,yet I don’t want to overcome it. It’s the only thing that can make me awake.

So lately, I got a new place to work.. More hours and more people, for an introvert like me and since my people skills are rusty, though I am still capable talking and interacting with many people, it draining my energy so badly.


I get tired everyday and less time for binge watch :( , I feel empty, souless, lonely, and lost now.
Movies and tv shows are like easy books for me, keeps me entertaining and give me knowledge and the life I wanna see out there. A friend told me “Strange how the real world seems so unreal.”
Maybe that’s because my life’s so boring, and the people around are boring too.. haha sorry. Or maybe, I am the boring one here.

Yet I don’t have a nerve to get out of this life. Too many responsibility to abandon.
Every day at work, when everybody talking about next level of their career, all I think is “Will I ever get out of this life?” “What’s my skill so I could get another job to do?” “ What If I am gonna stuck here?” “I hope George R.R Martin not gonna kill my Arya.”

I don’t know what to do, I don’t know what’s my really passion is.. I keep worrying about what am I supposed to do.

I know every human being is different, but I still wondering how’s everybody around me looks so happy with this job I consider as boring, with their marriage, their children, and things I deep down damn scared of. Because I know I am going to trap into that life sooner or later, if… I don’t make a move.

Fuck.  I am blank now, I’ll go back to watch my series.